Day was pretty half-and-half today. First off, Joel doesn't show up for the presentation even though he promised. I'm really tired of people making empty promises. I know it's kinda naive to think that there aren't any such people in the world like that today, but at the end of it all you still wonder why it has to happen to you. But then again, we can't say where/who/what we will end up with. All we can do is try to work our way toward some kind of better tomorrow. Cause, you know, good things come with working hard. And stuff. People who take things for granted? They'll learn eventually that they can't have everything. As we all do. Everyone has to live with a certain amount of disappointment in their lives - armours them for harsh reality.

But if you can turn that around - why not? I've always believed in the yin and yang. There's a certain balance in life that not many notice. Chances are, many notice only the bad things that happen to them - but never the good things. We all tell ourselves we want to live our lives for these moments, but chances are you miss out on the small stuff, the kind that really keeps our lives going. Small blessings are blessings nonetheless. So your ex girlfriend hooks up with someone else and leaves you in the dust - most would be left cursing, swearing and generally bitching a lot. But if you really did have any feelings for her, you'd be happy that she'd found someone that she can be totally happy with. Especially if she's been with that someone else for ages, and you've had no one but yourself for that 2 years since she left you - I feel happier that she's happier. And isn't that what life should be about? When I go, I want to die without regrets - that I'm happy with the way I lived my life. No ruing missed chances or opportunities. Complete 100% user satisfaction.

"I was told, there's a miracle, for each day that I tried/I was told, there's a new love that's born, for each one that has died/I was told, there'll be no one to come along, when I'd be alone and afraid/I was told, if you dream of the next world, you'll find yourself, swimming in a lake of fire"