Ah... it's been a wonderful past 3 days. Starting from the beginning:

1/5/03:

Bummed around for most of the day, played some PS2 before I went to go get ready. Met her at 5.45 at the MRT, and surprised Indy when we showed up at his shop. Heh. After that, we decided to go to Cineleisure instead of Lido to watch, since Adrian and Hui Shi were there, and there might be a chance of running into them, curious and nosy people we were. =P Anyway, bought our tix for Anger Management, and we had about an hour to go eat dinner before the show started.

So, she suggests going to Lips cafe, which we do. We intended to call Ade+HS to see where they were, only to find them sitting near the window, and we didn't even realise it. *Paiseh moment*, both me and Maddy couldn't stop laughing over the whole sheepish situation. Our food there was great, we took turns feeding each other mashed potatoes. Yummy potatoes. We wanted to eat dessert but there wasn't enough time... and we were off to watch our movie.

The movie was pretty funny, Jack Nicholson really stole the whole show. Adam Sandler wasn't bad as well, but the movie had us laughing till we almost cried (well not really). It was nice to cuddle her as we watched the movie. Gawd I love her.

After the movie ended, which was about 9, we left Cine to go in search of ice cream! Made our way to that crepes place at Annex, where we indulged in a sinful Oreo + Vanilla combo. We talked and chatted, and fed each other again (we really seemed to do that a lot). Then, it was about 10.30, so we both left for home. I wished I lived nearer her so I could send her home all the time...

2/5/03

Went to school to meet up with Maddy and check that she was alright. Also did some generic opening stuff. But that really was secondary to the more important issues. Babe, I hope you'll be alright and not let this whole thing affect you. You're far too precious to me to have anything happen to you.

After our editing session was over, we rushed (and I mean rushed) to TM to catch X2. Kickarse movie. The best scene in the whole movie was Magneto's escape.

"There's something different about you..."
"Yeah I WAS having a good day..."
"No..."
*smiles*
"Too much iron in your blood."
[Commence kickass escape]




Seriously, go watch it. Although there's some inconsistencies in the movie which we comic purists kinda found odd, the movie generally was pretty enjoyable. Most of all because of the pretty lady sitting beside me, but you don't wanna hear about that. =)

Sent her home afterwards, so I got to see where she lived. It looks pretty cosy. Went back after that by train where I got approached by a couple of Mormons (ask me about it), and I got to meet Elder One. I'm not kidding about the name. Got home and fell asleep pretty fast, I was that tired.

3/5/03

Went to school SUPER early to do last minute editing. Only to find out they extended the deadline again, so yeah. Not arguing though, we're more or less done with the thing. Yay!

Met Maddy at the bus stop after that to do comics shopping. It was Free Comic Book Day! So yeah, comics and all were pretty much the order of the day. I had like at least $80 worth of comics. Maddy bought her indy titles and I bought my mainstream titles, just imagine what our comic books put together would look like. *Daydreams*

And a nice shelf with all our collectibles, her ponies, my statuettes/busts, posters, sigh....

Heh. Anyway, tried looking for a new pair of surf shorts (actually, just a pair period. I don't have any). Hint. *cough* we walked around some more, I blew more cash, and then we went to Gelare so Maddy could get her ice cream fix. I ordered a milkshake and she ordered a float, and we sat there for what must have been a good hour+ reading comics and chilling out, before we decided to go back home. And here I am now, took a nap in the afternoon so I feel kinda nice and refreshed.

Tomorrow's my birthday.... I'll be seeing her again. ^_^

Adam Sandler - I want to grow old with you

wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you


I promise to love you, yesterday, today, tomorrow, forever. I'll be there with you in good times, in bad times, in hard times, and I will always be true to you, and to me. Even when we're having rough spots, I want to be by your side. Let's grow old together. =)

I miss you already.

"Hanwei is a rhapsody of delight"

It's over, it's finally over! Exams are over and gone with, and I can relax (a little. Still have the accursed Polunin Project to settle). After the exam (see you for supp paper), hung around school, to wait for Jenny to finish the SUPER SECRET GROOMING TALK that all the girls had. Must have been traumatic, they all insisted that "it should have been for us guys instead". Shrug.

Went to Chinatown after that, to go film more footage for the clip. Walked till I got tired, then walked some more, waited for Siwei to be happy with the footage we had, and then it was off for me to Bugis to meet Maddy, Edwina, and Serene. Joel came along with me, to pass the time till his meeting at Far East Square. In amazing cosmic coincidence, ran into Hozea who joined our merry little party to town.

Upon reaching went to @omix just to check out everything, and they're moving everything over to the Orchard MRT branch. It's seriously messy over there. But hey, going back on Saturday for Free Comic Book Day. I should go early. After that, went to Alaric's at Cine with Mad, while Edwina, Serene and Hozea went over to Far East Plaza. Had a spot of dinner with Mad, then departed for home. For. Er. More Dinner.

*Sigh*

Just realised how much I'd miss everyone for the next 6 months of SIP. I feel like filming my own video, but for the whole course instead. I'll film everyone. And then make multiple copies, and distribute it to everyone at graduation, or whenever I can finish it. =p

"Do not regret what you did. Only regret that which you did not do."

Sonata Arctica - Tallulah

Remember when we used to look how sun set far away'
And how you said: "this is never over"
I believed your every word and I quess you did too
But now you're saying : "hey, let's think this over"

You take My hand and pull me next to you, so close to you
I have a feeling you don't have the words
I found one for you, kiss your cheak, say bye, and walk away
Don't look back cause I am crying

I remember little things, you hardly ever do
Tell me why.
I don't know why it's over
I remember shooting stars, the walk we took that night
I hope your wish came true, mine betrayed me

You let my hand go, and you fake a smile for me
I have a feeling you don't know what to do
I look deep in your eyes, hesitate a while...
Why are you crying'

Tallulah, It's easier to live alone than fear the time it's over
Tallulah, find the words and talk to me ,oh, Tallulah,
This could be... heaven

I see you walking hand in hand with long-haired drummer of the band
In love with her or so it seems, he's dancing with my beauty queen
Don't even dare to say you hi, still swallowing the goodbye
But I know the feelings still alive- still alive

I lost my patience once, so do you punish me now
I'll always love you, no matter what you do
I'll win you back for me if you give me a chance
But there is one thing you must understand

Tallulah, It's easier to live alone than fear the time it's over
Tallulah, find the words and talk to me ,oh, Tallulah,
This could be... heaven

Here I am. Woke up not too long ago (at slightly past 10, surprise). After reading through the other blogs that I read, most of them have some kind of deep, heartfelt reflection things going on. If you've been a regular reader (even if you aren't, keep it to yourself), you'd notice that I have a distinct lack of such entries. I don't know why. I suppose I'm not comfortable with letting people know my state of mind. I don't want people to worry about me. Most of all, I don't want people to get down after reading some reflective stuff that I do write sometimes (case in point my deleted entry a couple days ago). I'd much rather put up a nice cheery entry, and make someone's day brighter rather than depress them further with the knowledge that yet another friend is feeling down.

Maybe it's because it doesn't feel very sincere to me. Whatever I write down here self reflection wise just doesn't feel real to me. Same deal with commenting on enetation. I start writing comments for other people's lengthy self-reflective entries, then halfway through I suddenly feel that it just doesn't express what I really want to say. So I click back and feel guilty that I can't tell or help advise the person the best way I can. Things like that I need to do in private, rather than air it out to the world. I really don't understand why.

I don't want to throw up some random feelings that make this blog seem like an outlet for angst. Even when I'm feeling moody there's no way that I can remember everything that I want to write, and therein is the problem. I never like to feel that I've done a halfassed job. Doesn't really help that I'm kind of forgetful. I never really liked to follow the crowd, just because some people are writing about how things have changed their lives or their life philosophy - hang out around me enough and you'll know what that very philosophy is. For me, it's more like I prefer to keep any private reflections just that - private.

I'm one of those kind of people who prefers to sit in the corner, stone, and think about things. Rather than write everything down. Not only do I forget some things, but in writing you're forced to put things down just one way. Thinking about it allows me to put across more abstract concepts that can't really be put down in writing. I'm sorry to disappoint people who want to read deep entries about how I've grown and what I've learnt as a person, but for the time I prefer to stare at a point in space and do my thinking there. I'm just not comfortable with people reading some entries of mine, and in comments write things that I'd already know. That's why it doesn't feel very right for me. I apologise for disappointing some people.

Tallulah, It's easier to live alone than fear the time it's over
Tallulah, find the words and talk to me ,oh, Tallulah, this could be... heaven

Those of you who'd checked here about a day ago would have seen a nice long lengthy rant. I just removed it cause I was feeling bad about it, and as such I'll try not to depress all of you.

Just had my CCC exam today, most of the worrying and panicking paid off, I guess. Went straight home cause I was (and still am) feeling a little sick. Have a good one.

Remind me to go for psychiatric therapy when everything's all over and done with.

Got up early at the crack of dawn (actually more like 9.00) to go film at Chinatown today. Then received message from Siwei, says to meet later. I go back to sleep. Wake up again, and rush out of the house, but was still 20 minutes late. Doh! Went filming at Chinatown (like I said) and wandered around trying to find the street. Siwei decided we needed an aerial shot, and so we went to the 24th floor of some block of flats nearby and filmed. I could barely look over the edge without feeling a wobble in my knees and fear in my throat.

Yes, I have a fear of heights. Ironic, isn't it? So, we film for about 3 hours, we walk, and walk, and walk (and also, we walked). I dunno about Wei but my legs seriously ache. Also, by some cosmic coincidence we bump into Liling in Chinatown, also filming, and Lynnette + boyfriend at Raffles City. Left them alone and went over to Sim Lim on my regular recon run, checking prices of computer parts. =p I want to get a DVD rom. Only $70, but I think I can bargain down to $55 or $60.

Bleah, who am I kidding. Money's money. But hey, at least my birthday's coming soon. HINT HINT. =D

"45% of the people in the world randomly make up statistics."

Got back from Danny's chalet a little while ago. I'm so nice and fresh and showered. *Luxuriates in clean sensation*

Yesterday sure was crowded. If I had to list.. Me, Dan, Adrian, Jonathan, Jim, Bryan, Alicia, Shen, Sean, Nat, Gi, Heinz, John, Kris, Qiuhua, Huishi, Pamela, Kenneth, his girlfriend Eunice, Liling, Hashirin, Dan's friends Edwin (Preacher) and Sonny (Bloody), Amanda, Fiona, and their boyfriends, and I think that's about all. Imagine, we all squeezed inside that little chalet. Oh, by the way? Costa Sands sucks. Poor service, poor amenities, cramped space, they downgrade you for no apparent reason, and all that for $250. Yeap. So don't go there.

I spent (almost) the whole of yesterday sweating over the BBQ pit. I think I'm getting better at cooking BBQ style. I dunno, I like having people praise my cooking. Iron Chef Barbeque! Sounds nice. My arm has a cramp from prolonged usage of the tongs. Ouch. Satay, Otak, Chicken, and my mum's potato salad all disappeared in a flash. And then it was back to the grill for me. I should start advertising my services as professional barbequer. Only $10 an hour. ^_^

I didn't eat that much yesterday either, though. Shen had that honour. >_<

So me, Dan and Bryan stayed over while everyone left. I dunno, I'd have thought more people would be staying over. Slept fitfully and woke up (like I always do) at about 930 in the morning. I really can't seem to sleep past 10, no matter how hard I try. Bummed around for about 3 hours, waiting for Gi and Heinz to come to claim the latter's phone, and then finally piled into a cab with Dan and Bryan to go on my way home.

Ah, I needed to wax lyrical for a moment. Now that THAT'S all out of my system...

Woke up super early today to get ready for CCC presentation. You all know what disaster happened, but we managed to get through it without too much trouble - I think Ms. Chuah took pity on our woefully underprepared group. =D

After that, slacked around in school a bit to loosen up - one more hurdle was cleared! Then I somehow took about 4 hours to bang out quick script for Single Cam, then it was off to Bugis with Maddy. Satisfied my comic fix (Soldier X and Exiles are great stories. Pity Soldier X's been cancelled. Sigh.) then went to go meet Dan and Jon at Bras Basah to eat and talk crap. Then, followed Dan as he went to Sasha Bear's to buy some bears for his female friends, then made our way to @omix. Watched Maddy squeal in delight over Anabelle, then went to the Lucky Plaza branch to see what I could get for Danny's birthday (Enjoy those BoP figures!). Then, went home supremely tired.

But happy!

"Don't argue with an idiot. He will drag you down to his level and beat you with experience."

Day was pretty half-and-half today. First off, Joel doesn't show up for the presentation even though he promised. I'm really tired of people making empty promises. I know it's kinda naive to think that there aren't any such people in the world like that today, but at the end of it all you still wonder why it has to happen to you. But then again, we can't say where/who/what we will end up with. All we can do is try to work our way toward some kind of better tomorrow. Cause, you know, good things come with working hard. And stuff. People who take things for granted? They'll learn eventually that they can't have everything. As we all do. Everyone has to live with a certain amount of disappointment in their lives - armours them for harsh reality.

But if you can turn that around - why not? I've always believed in the yin and yang. There's a certain balance in life that not many notice. Chances are, many notice only the bad things that happen to them - but never the good things. We all tell ourselves we want to live our lives for these moments, but chances are you miss out on the small stuff, the kind that really keeps our lives going. Small blessings are blessings nonetheless. So your ex girlfriend hooks up with someone else and leaves you in the dust - most would be left cursing, swearing and generally bitching a lot. But if you really did have any feelings for her, you'd be happy that she'd found someone that she can be totally happy with. Especially if she's been with that someone else for ages, and you've had no one but yourself for that 2 years since she left you - I feel happier that she's happier. And isn't that what life should be about? When I go, I want to die without regrets - that I'm happy with the way I lived my life. No ruing missed chances or opportunities. Complete 100% user satisfaction.

"I was told, there's a miracle, for each day that I tried/I was told, there's a new love that's born, for each one that has died/I was told, there'll be no one to come along, when I'd be alone and afraid/I was told, if you dream of the next world, you'll find yourself, swimming in a lake of fire"

Just a little tinkering around with the Blog before I go to school. Sigh.

Just came back from eating buffet dim sum. Yummy. And I'm amazingly still feeling full. Went down with Eddie, Rachel, Shen and Ling. It's like 16.80++ for free flow green tea/ice lemon tea and as much dim sum as you can stand. I might just go back.

Earlier on in the day was left to shuttle back and forth between mine and my neighbour's house to upload the stupid website which I cashed in my joker for. Only managed to upload the thing at 12 p.m., and thus I decided to stay home. Playing WC3. Heh. Anyway, when I finally decided to leave for school it was about 2? Then reached around 3. Handed it up, found out I was going to STTV (Straits Times TV) for my SIP, and told Ms. Hoo just in time. Ms. Hoo incidentally, was keying in the different placements for SIP placements. And if I hadn't told her, I'd be ending up at NKF Public Relations. *phew*.

Anyway, hung around in school for about another 10 minutes, and tormented Fiona's group who was still rushing their website. Heh. Then left for TM to meet Shen, Ling, Heinz and Naz. Stoned around for a while and found out Heinz has information on EVERYONE. Seriously. You ask him anything about anyone in CMM and he'll probably know some scandal or another. That's seriously scary.

Anyhoo, went to @omix in Orchard MRT later with Shen and Ling, hung out there for a couple hours. Bought some comics, then went to Pacific Plaza to eat the nummy dim sum. Then left, and here I am. Ta da.

Got off the phone with Maddy just now, my ear is burning. Sigh. I think my battery's gonna melt sooner or later. Lord knows it's already halfway there.

Oh man. When I said I could relax a week or so ago I was so wrong. It's been nothing but website in my brain for the past few days. I'm all done anyway. Well, more like couldn't be bothered to do anymore but it's almost the same.

Watched Johnny English in the morning. Good old laugh out loud Brit humour. Really original jokes, too. Watch it! You won't be disappointed.

On that note, Monty Python > you. Damn. I really have nothing at all to write about on this blog. Makes me wonder why I keep it. Oh well. Then again, I haven't stepped out of the house since I got home on Friday evening, so I guess that more or less explains it.

Till my next boring, blank, filled with nothing update:

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Argh. I've not been well this couple days. Naturally, when you're sick nowadays, you're a criminal. >_<
Been at home resting for a couple of days, but I can't be sure whether or not my group mates can finish off that radio group project by this Friday. And I still have the upgraded website to worry about too. Sigh.

Well, at least I don't have SARS or anything.

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Ah.... I can feel tension lift from my shoulders. As each deadline melts away, and I get more work done. This is the first blog update in over a week! Haven't done much else these few days but work on my MEP project, as well as Radio. But hey, it's all coming to a head. By next monday, it should all be good.

I can just envision a trip to Bintan when everything's over... yeah, yeah. I can't go to the Maldives like SOME people. ¬_¬

I'm not gonna be blogging for quite a while. Too many work committments to make.

-On a hiatus-

Yawn. Work work. Yesterday I went to go film for Ling's group after their original detective (Hozea) had to back out for some reason. Anyway, I feel good. I can act! Gwahahahahaha. Even Shen said he wanted to slap me because I sounded so much like an asshole. Anyway, finished around 10.30, then shared a cab home with Nat. Damn, but I'm broke. Spent all day today working, though. Okay, only some of it. But I *am* getting work done, dammit!

Someone needs to lock up my PS2. Sigh.

Was too sleepy yesterday to blog, so here it is:

Had my radio shift earlier on Thursday morning, and I royally screwed it up. So many practice sessions, and I screw that one up. Yaaaaaargh. Ah well, at least almost no one heard it. Or would care enough. Had a couple of hours of school, then rushed home to shower and change for my interview at SPH. I don't think it went very well, actually. A lot of the questions they asked me I didn't anticipate, such as whether I could speak Chinese/Dialect (!), or what I thought a reporter did. Needless to say, I don't think I came across as knowing exactly what I wanted to do. And THEN they asked me why I seemed so solemn ("Where's your youthful enthusiasm? You're only 19!"). Stuff like that.

Fast Forward to today, when Brendan Wong seemed to be in an uber bitch mode. Only 8 people showed up for class, and needless to say, he wasn't the happiest camper in TP. So he cancelled the class this morning, and told us to come back again tomorrow. So there goes my Saturday morning. Then, that left us with about 6 whole hours to kill. Fantastic. So I decided to do a little editing, then I bummed around and somehow managed to waste the time (Eddie went home to sleep for 3 hours, then came home. Applause please.), then went for lecture. Again, Ms. Chuah complained about the super low attendance. We finished early, then I went to Long John Silver's to try out that Spicy Chicken thing. It's not really very spicy at all (and this comes from a non-chilli eater), but at 3.90 for 3 pieces of regular-sized chicken, I sure as hell wasn't complaining. Eddie went back to school to pass the time, and I went home. I'll stop blogging at this point, since I can bet there won't be much else that will be happening.

Dasvedanya
HW